Thankful

I first want to say that the lord blessed me today and that I am so grateful that he helped me through the tough time that I have been having!!! He answered a prayer for me today and that is such a burden off of my shoulder a load off of my heart!!! I also want to say that I am so lucky to have my baby girl yes I know that she is three years old and that she isn't a baby any more but she is my baby and the only one that I have and that I have never been so scared in my life than I was at the prospect of loosing her... but like I said the lord blessed and kept me. I don't know what I would do with out him in my life. I know that I am not a church goer and that I am not the poster child of chritianity but I can say that he answers prayer and I am truly truly blessed. so from the bottom of my heart Thank you Lord for your blessings on me!!! someone I once knew wrote a song and for some reason it has stuck with me this 13 some odd years and I really feel like it is part of what gave me the strength to get threw this sane and able to live with myself. the words are meaningful to me and as a kid I thought that it was just a song well now that I am older I know that what songs say are what makes them mean so much to all of us. and I know that all of my blogs kinda go off in other directions from where I start but all I want is to just ramble sometimes I am not doing this to prove how good I am or whatever I ramble that is just who I am and things that mean a lot to me usually don't make since either so..... oh well any way it is almost midnight so I am going to bed and please remember this...

Lord make my words sweet as hone because I might have to eat them later.

ok...

well sitting here alone again.... mu hubby works hard and I know that but I just wish he didn't work nights. and I am playing on Facebook and wondering about things and I don't know why I let them get to me but... here it goes I mean God gave us a little voice in our heads hearts or whatever they say it is in but what I am saying is what is it with people lie and cheating to get things they don't need? I mean I have done things that I am not proud of, we all have! but to keep doing it and make other people suffer because of it I mean seriously people!?!? I guess we all get what is coming to us in the end but what about us that want to see the bad people get what is coming to them??? I know I know being spiteful never hurt any one but yourself but I am a firm believer in the " I don't get mad I get even" theory so why is it that I have to sit and wait??? patience is a virtue I know but what can I say I am honest when I put this here I am not the most virtues person in the world. I try to be a good person. I have manners I am nice to people even when they arn't nice to me I go out of my way to do a friend a favor and I put myself under a lot of stress to do so but all I get in return is more stress than I can handle. I mean I go out of my way to be honest with people and I go out of my way to make sure that no one needs anything. I am a people pleaser though so what good that does me none I can't stand not having someone like me I have to heck with it all and being hateful is the wrong way to get things done but it almost seems that it is the only way to get things done and that is not fair!!!!! I mean look at all the people who try and they get crap handed to them and look at all the people who lie and cheat and and they have all they WANT and need thats not fair not right not not not!!!!!! I think that if we all tried a little harder then it would not only be a better world but it would make our lives so much easer!!! Any way this is my first REAL blog and I think that it is about time for me to go to bed it has been a day a long one at that so I am going to say goon night and please remember that you catch more flys with honey than with vinegar so be nice and smile at people it is like when you throw a rock in the water it has the ripple affect and every one wants to try it.


Good night all and get some rest and have a nice weekend!

Don't you

Well I guess I should start by saying that I still don't know about this blogging thing but this is only my second post. Second I should get to the point of this party post or whatever. I just have to start by saying that I am not a church goer don't get me wrong I believe in the big man and know that he gives us miracles every day, Things like getting out of bed and giving us a bed to sleep in a warm home to stay in and giving me a beautiful little girl who grows and thrives every day. What gets me is the people who claim to be so close to him and cheat, lie, steal, cuss and drink. I know that I am not one to preach I know that I am not one that is close to him in a way that would make people feel him with me like some I know but what I do know is those who do claim that they are all holy and that they are so Christian and then they put their kids last if there is a need or they cheat and get assistance with food or daycare and buy cigeretts and beer or they get that soda that they can't live with out or so they think and people who send their kids outside for the neighbor to watch so they can have time to talk on the phone or get up and leave to run errands is just to much for me. I know that I don't deserve the worlds best mother award by any means but what I do know is that My daughter is mine and it is no ones job to raise her but mine!! and she is my blessing I was told I can't have any more babies and she was all I could have I miss having the baby days with first steps and giggles and smiles with out the teeth but I have something that most moms miss out on and that is having just one baby that is mine to teach to talk to, to bond with I love my baby and what a blessing she is to me know I know  I have put way to many topics in this post but I am just to busy trying to say so many things and as I know (and so do most mothers) your mind never rest when you are awake and some never get the chance to sleep. please note that I am just rambleing on and on because I have made a goal to make at least one post a week. so in closeing ( when I was a kid that was what the preacher used to say when there was only about 30 minutes left in his sermon) I will just say be thankful for what God has blessed you with and Never Never EVER take anything for granted because you never know when something could be taken from you.

welp....

Well I have friends that blog and my husband does every so often and I can't really say my feelings and so I thought that I would give this a try. I guess I should say first that I am a fun loving goof ball that loves movies, reading and just about anything outdoors. I have a little girl that just turned three and she is my life the air I breath and a husband that I love dearly and not to many friends but the ones I have are the best!! I hate people who love drama and would do anything to get it started including lie I specially hate liers and Cheater and drama queens. I love my life and I Love most everyone in it what. well I have to get off of here for now time to make dinner the next post will prob be a lot longer but ta ta for now!